Originally I had this poem with the letters to Kate below. My research indicates he did not meet Kate until after the war. To whom these lines are addressed is a mystery which perhaps only Henry Albert Potter himself could unravel...... -Mike Ruddy
Lines to-------------- In Camp July 1864 When the day's work's done and the sun is gone When the rays of the moon thro' the leaves are seen I awake from my dream to the din of war Then I think of my native land, my home, |
Five letters of Henry Albert Potter to Catherine Gardner,
who became his wife. - Michael Ruddy
Ovid Mich I haven't yet decided to come East. This winter. Can come one time as well as another so far as that is concerned - if I come at all. Should come more to see you than any one else. Now Kate do you think it will pay? How I should feel, you know, to come out to Yatesville and find you playing your distractions to some "other feller" Boo Hoo Hoo! The thought is awful to contemplate for one moment. - but if you with disinterested advice tell me to come why then at the risk of breaking my neck on the confounded railroads, I'll sacrifice myself for you and appear before you --- What a martyr I'd make of myself wouldn't I? So courageous __ as "e-----" as Hasby says. There now Kate, I've thrown myself at you. You can "catch on the fly" if you choose and I won't bound away from you unless the collision makes my elasticity so great as to render me powerful to help myself. I didn't intend to throw myself at you very hard. But enough of this shall look with some anxiety for a reply soon. I send our card to you thinking you may want to buy something of our house sometime. My Respects to Miss Gardner of Torrey (or Milo) and to all of your family. Do you hear from Mrs Angell? I have not since she left us. Hope your enjoyment this writer may be all you anticipate with interest. This will not start till tomorrow so you will probably get it Saturday.
Shall look for a reply as soon as a week from that time. Kindly, |
My Own Dear Kate |
Sunday Eve I have looked for a letter from you for the past four days, and every
day have been disappointed. Yesterday, tho't certainly would bring me tidings
of you and today -well, I have been uneasy like a fish out of water for
why should I conceal my feeling from you --- have conjured up all sorts
of imaginary evils which came to befall me. You must excuse me for my plain way of getting at what I wish to say. I never was noted for my eloquence in speaking or for clothing my ideas in as flowery garb as some. Our house is progressing finely. The carpenters will finish their work the coming week. I have bot my sash doors and blinds. They will be here this week. Everyone speaks of it as pleasant and convenient and the work on itis as good, if not better than any house in town. It will cost me more than I expected it would, probably between $1200 and $1500 but that is the experience of all who build, I believe. Aunt Nep. writes me that miss Angell is married but does not mention the gentleman's name. I shall be both proud and happy to introduce you to my friends here and think you will enjoy yourself. Shall be ready to come to your place the first week in Nov. but shall await your pleasure of course as regards the exact time. Shall look for a letter from you every day until one comes and will write you soon again. Am looking forward with many pleasurable anticipations to the time when we shall be together and I can come home to my own cheerful fireside. For I am tired living with strangers. Write me a long letter of hood things. Tell me what you are doing and how you get along with it. Yours ever - with a kiss goodnight, |
Henry Albert Potter married Catherine Elizabeth Gardner, daughter of Peleg Gardner and Nancy Havens, on December 2, 1867 |
Monday Morn Dearest I tho't I would not write to you until I got a letter from you. But cannot wait. It seems more than a week since you went away and I was so lonesome all day yesterday. George staid with me last night for the first. Geo Gibbs staid with me on Friday night - It is a good boarding place at Fulkerson's. I hope you had a pleasant journey but I know you must have been so tired when you got home. How is our baby? Did the journey or the change of milk make him sick? I hope not. My prayer is for you and the baby daily. That you may not get sick or meet with any accident. I know you will enjoy your visit at home so much. And I am glad you went. But I am so lonesome sometimes, it seems as if I wanted to come to you so bad I can hardly wait. You are the dearest and truest of all and I know now how much I love you. Did you think of me last night?! I sat in the window about half-past nine waiting for Geo and looked out at the moon and the stars and wondered if you were thinking of me! And I tho't of our wedded life and how you had given up home and friends and all the ties which bound you to your native place and for my sake had come away in this new country to live with me, almost a stranger. And I wondered if I had not sometimes been wicked and whether I had not forgotten how much you had sacrificed and wished I had not treated you so coldly and my heart was full of sadness when I thot of these things and I thot how imperfect and how far I had fallen short of your ideal of manhood and I felt sorry and repented and prayed to God that I might always remember how good and kind and true you had always been to me and my heart was filled with love for you and I believe he blessed us as I sat there for I felt that He was near me and that I should always love and serve Him. I is going to be a hot day. Wheat is nearly ripe enough to harvest
and so we shall have a dull week of it. Love to all. Kiss the baby for me
and remember that I love you darling wife better than all the world beside.
Don't get sick. I embrace you. I kiss you. Good Bye [Note: "the baby" is Monroe Potter who died 23 December 1874 at 5 years] |
Thursday 4pm My Love Your dear good letter came this day and Oh, how my heart beat and thrilled with pleasure as I read those lines of true affection and tenderness. From you my dearest, my beloved wife. How I miss you God only knows and how I long to see you cannot be expressed in this poor way. If I could only fold you to my heart. Oh! So close and so long and press those lips to mine in a long, long embrace. My joy would be complete. It seems to me sometimes that we have not improved all of our time in lovein each other as we should. I have thought since you were away that if our separation instead of being but a few short weeks had been forever, that how easy and not an uncommon thing if one of us had been stricken sown and called away to that unknown world by our maker, how different would be our emotions. How every thought and action would come to our heart knocking dolefully and would either acquit or condemn. Oh Kate, let us be thankful that it is as it is. Let us remember what a frail hold we have on the shores of time and that soon we may indeed be called upon to part. Oh the thought, no more to see, no more to caress, no more to love each other on the world. And let us live and love each other as though each day was the lastg and then we will have nothing to regret. My Love, the tears will come unbidden when I think of these things. My God bless you and keep you from harm and the baby, our little bud. God shield him and protect his pathway and may your influence, dearest, mould his little heart to love and serve his maker. Even as your example first awakened in his father's heart a desire heaven-ward and brought him a stubborn and willful man to the mercy (?) of Jesus our Savior who saves to the uttermost. I shall be a star in your crown. Friday July 30 I have ordered a new Hat, pr. of boots and suit of clothes. Think
I will start East about the 10th of August but will not say positive in
this letter. Do not know as either of us will go to the city this fall,
but will decide by the time I leave home. Went to a prayer meeting but did
not enjoy myself very well. Are growing stout and healthy again? Are the
roses blooming again in your cheeks? You must get as tough as a -, as a-,
well as a tough as you can be. I don't care how fat you get. The fatter,
the better, so you will be a big armful. You haven't been to Ben Potter
yet I suppose. I rec'd a letter from Rogers but nothing from Brundage. I
cannot enjoy a visit with Rogers while you are away. Give my love to Hiram,
Johnnie and all. Hope uncle Smith will stay until I get there. I kissed
you last night in my dreams, Oh, how sweet, [the two days were written on one letter -mr] |