December 1, 2009 “Meet me in Again, we pull them out, sizing them up, walking around each one. (One would think this was a once in a lifetime purchase!) After going through not three or four trees…try a dozen or more…looking behind you, you have to imagine seeing several trees completely out of line from their display. Regardless, “we” decide on that “perfect” tree. It is just over 7 feet, beautiful limbs, perfect and full. Total time searching and sizing and viewing…well over an hour...all in fun, laughter and good old "Christmas spirit." Got the tree! In the SUV it goes…just barely and home we go. Jay has an exuberance about him when it comes to Christmas. The tree, the lights, the decorations, it’s what made Christmas, Christmas! His spirits were lifted beyond description. His mother Charlotte recently made an observation:
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November 24, 2009 Dear Jay Thanksgiving is here. All that I can think about is when you came home toI guess what I really wanted to do is start from the beginning: There are so many memories that I have with you and I growing up. I remember we had a piece of candy that was hard. We got a knife to cut it in half to share it. Unfortunately, we were very young and neither of us should have tried to cut it. You cut your finger badly and you carried the scar throughout your life. We rocked in the rocking chair and I was holding your finger with a cloth wrapped around it, while we were both crying. This was just the beginning. Do you remember when we lived in the White Rock Motel? We used to ride our bikes up and down the road in front of the motel. Well, there was one day when we rode back and forth and you looked back at me to talk. When you turned around you ran into a parked trailer. Your mouth was really hurt. You had teeth that cut your upper lip and you bleed for a very long time. How about all the days we went to the TeePee spa together to swim. We had a great time going up and down the waterslide together. I know you have gone back to visit some of the places where we used to live and remember. I think that had to be very special .I know that we talked about visiting someday together. I really wish that we had. My memories of my childhood are filled with you. Going to milk the cows at Oh yeah, do you remember that really creepy place we used to visit that was full of pigeons. There was a really old lady that lived above in the "tower" that we visited. She was nuts!!!! I'm not even sure how safe we were. We did everything together so we were ok. There are so many other things that come into my heart and mind without warning. Dad playing guitar and us all singing his fun songs together. Your big beautiful brown eyes full of love and laughter sitting on the arm of his chair. Jay, the hardest thing for me to understand is why? Why did you not say goodbye to me? There are so many words that I needed to say to you and so many things I needed to hear from you. I know that I am being selfish, I just wasn't ready to let go. I have been numb since that phone call. My heart and my love will never be the same. How do I go on without your humor and love? I still have your name and number in my phone. I can't delete it. On a message board as you enter my house, you wrote a message to us saying: "Hi, love you! Uncle
Jay."
It's still
there since 2007.
My kids love you very much and will never forget you. The time
that we
spent together in I will never say goodbye to you Jay, I can't. My tears will continue to flow and my heart will continue to ache. My life on earth will never be the same without you in it. However, my days will go on and when my time comes I will see you again. We will have such a reunion that the Angels will weep with happiness and love. I will continue
to love you today, tomorrow, and Always. Your
Sister Debi
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November 19, 2009 How do you summarize a lifetime of experiences with someone as incredible as Jay. All of our childhood we had each other,
Ken-Deb-Jay and I. We were more than
siblings we were best
friends.
When you move as much as we did growing up you haven't a chance to make
lasting
friendships so we became best friends. I am the oldest and as such I
had the
responsibility of watching out for the others, especially Jay because
he was the baby. I bet I carried him a hundred miles even though I
was not
much bigger than he was. I felt as if he were mine and I loved him so
much. He
was always falling on this thing or that usually when Debi was chasing
him through
the house. One Christmas the
tree fell on Jay completely covering him. He was not very old and was
covered
in ornaments and tinsel. We eventually dug him out from under it
laughing all
the while. As an adult Jay and I didn't spend a
lot of time together but you know it just
didn't matter how long the gap between visits were. Talking to him
always felt
like home. He was so bright and engaging. He was probably one of the
funniest
human beings that ever graced this earth. His laugh was infectious. He
was so
much fun to be with. He loved teasing us, especially Debi. They would
go at it
all of the time. Mom and I would laugh so hard we hurt. Debi gave as
good as
she got too. They had such a unique relationship. I could write all night about the
things we did and the experiences we've
shared. Jay filled my heart and will always and
forever be with me
in my memories. I love you brother. Rest well until we can be together
again. Belinda |
November 14, 2009 Another holiday that Jay anticipated each year was Thanksgiving. Oh the turkey!!! The trimmings!!! And everything associated with this holiday was on his list to make happen. His turkey feast was always a project that started at least a couple of weeks in advance. His favorite method for preparing a turkey was with brine. The first time he brined a turkey was four years ago. After watching Alton Brown’s technique on Food Network, Jay was determined to have a brined turkey. The project began by assembling all the necessary equipment, seasonings, and menu. He went to Home Depot’s paint department to select the right size 10 gallon plastic pail from the paint department to contain the turkey in the brine.When everything was assembled, he was ready to find the right turkey. If ever one had the opportunity to shop with Jay, it was always an experience. Not just any turkey would do. It had to be the right size, perfect form and right price. If you thought searching for that Halloween pumpkin was something, try viewing a 6 foot man bending over a market’s refrigeration bin, moving one turkey over after another, after another to find that right turkey, then you will have the perfect picture of Jay in his quest. All other shoppers…stand to the side. With turkey now in hand his menu was just beginning to take shape. He could not leave the market until he had at least the turkey and the cranberry sauce!Guy |
October 20, 2009 You Can Shed Tears
by David Harkins You can shed tears that they've gone, Or you can smile because they have lived. You can close your eyes and pray they'll come back, Or you can open you eyes and see all they have left you. Your heart can be empty because you can't see them, Or your heart can be full of the love you've shared. You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday, Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday. You can remember them and only that they've gone, Or you can cherish their memory and let it live on. You can cry and close your mind, Be empty and turn your back, Or you can do what they'd want; Smile, open your eyes, love and journey on. |
October 9, 2009 <> We enter one of Jay’s favorite times of the year…the holidays! Jay liked Halloween, Thanksgiving, New Years, but especially Christmas.Guy |
October 8, 2009 <>It has been six months since we said our good-byes. Jay’s memory still lingers strong with many of us. This is a testament of how strong an impact he had on each of us. In reflection, the contemplation of the value of life and the contribution it offers is beyond our understanding. We know he hasn’t really gone, for he is with us still. All it takes is to remember the places, the thoughts and the times and we are instantly with him again.<> Guy |
May 5, 2009 <> The following was received in a letter to the family from one of Jay’s work associates from<> These comments
were
received from Jenerah Hare from |
May 4, 2009 I was fortunate enough to cross Jay's path @ SJG. He was indeed a sweet soul. Even though I wasn't as close to him as others ( possibly due to my working on the night shift) when we did cross paths he greeted me with a warm smile & a hug. He managed to bring cheer to the nurses station with his humor & wit. He is a great loss to loved ones & family. My deepest sympathy & condolences. May God grant you comfort & yet joy at his remembrance.Patrick Bailey Fresno, California |
May 2, 2009 He was a great man and a powerful asset to Rosewood. I was privileged to watch him grow. <>Bakersfield, California |
May 1, 2009 We are deeply grieved to hear about the death of Jay. He was special to so many of us at San Joaquin Gardens. He always had a special smile and a word of encouragement to all he encountered. He will be greatly missed. Our prayers and thoughts are with you during this loss.Mark Steele, Executive Director VP San Joaqun Gardens Fresno, California |
May 1, 2009 My world is definitely a much better place for having known him...and I will always remember him, with much love and appreciation for the GIFT he was.... Priest River, Idaho |
April 29, 2009 So glad I had the opportunity to meet him once! Co-worker of Debi (Jay’s sister) Bev from Minnesota |
April 28, 2009 Looking for the words to express a loss so strong and felt by so many, is indeed a heartfelt struggle. In my attempt to compile this memorial website, I was reminded often of the times Jay and I talked about the future and his dreams.I’ve known Jay for fifteen years as a close personal friend. His life and mine became one over time and what we shared together will be missed immensley Guy StanleyPrather, California |